it's almost finished!

I got the final layout for my book yesterday. It is almost finished. Now comes the scary part, letting someone see it and seeing if they will buy it. I'm really a wall flower in disguise. I don't like being"out there"and public. God give me strength!

Processing for life

Grieving surely must be a daily process and not only for someone who has lost a loved one. I am sitting here with the breeze outside mimicking the time passing. I have a friend whose son just left today. He walked across the threshold for the last time as a "member" of that household. He is off to make his own.

My friend's grief mingled with happiness strikes a cord in my heart as my last child set off with his new bride this past winter. That was a great day... and a sad one. Oh I am happy with his choice in every way. But the halls of my home are so quiet. I loved having children. They are such a blessing from the LORD. But it is a big process finding out who you are without them when the last one flies the coop.

I have many things to do. My husband and I are still very much enjoying each other. I know how that I am blessed to be able to say that. But I am at a quandary. What's next?

I think for today, next is grieving. Not because I am "sad" but because life has changed. And I must first grieve the change before I can find me in the ashes of what was.